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crimson's Articles In Home & Family
June 1, 2005 by crimson
I swear, there's something wrong with my sister. She literally is causing fights between us, because of her inability to listen, or else, she is simply not paying attention. I'm hoping that there is some medical reason why this is happening, because then I can attribute it all to that, and not simply bad manners. We were talking, at the top of our bloody lungs, about why I didn't come over to her house this morning to get her to drive Kole to school. (We live next door to each other.) ...
November 8, 2004 by crimson
I mentioned it before; my grandmother died this spring. It's taken months for the probate to do whatever a probate does (to be honest, I don't even know what the hell a probate is!) but slowly, things from her now-sold condo are making their way into our family's homes. I've lived a college-life existence. Futons, used furniture, and mismatching cups, plates, and silverware. I have more invested in books than anything else... I've got four large book cases crammed to overflowing. Kole,...
October 26, 2004 by crimson
I have the feeling that I am not doing so well in the mothering category. Lately, it seems as if I am handling things wrong, or just not getting the outcome that I expect. The worst thing about it is that I feel guilty and inadequate, even though I am doing my best. I don't know if the problem is because Kole is getting two very different parenting-styles, or if I am expecting too much or even too little, but the end result is behaviour that I do not approve of. Yesterday, she literally s...
October 14, 2004 by crimson
It hurts to be a mommy sometimes. My girl came home from school last week and was acting strangely. She looked sort of down and like she had a secret at the same time. I waited until the right moment and she finally told me that while she was at school, during circle, she had let a loud fart rip. And then she told me she cried. I was in the middle of starting to laugh, until I remembered how embarassing life can get for a child. I haven't blushed in years, but I remember doing so fre...
October 9, 2004 by crimson
There are some things, as a parent, that I absolutely detest. I hate when Kole wants to get out the easy-bake ovenor do any other type of cooking, because my daughter always loses interest and leaves me to clean up the mess that has just destroyed my kitchen. But this recipe is easy. It was fun. And it takes less than five minutes to do, including clean up. 1 cup of flour 1 cup of water 1/4 cup of salt 2 tsp. of alum or cream of tartar 2 1/2 Tb of vegetable oil food coloring M...
August 26, 2004 by crimson
I'll admit to something, but first, I also have to hastily add this; I've been thinking about it, but would never change what I currently have. Since starting work, I've occasionally wondered what it would have been like if I made a different decision than to be a single parent. Sure, I'd think about it during those lonely late night feeding times, or when it was going to be difficult to make it to the end of the week without pawning off something dear to me to buy more diapers or formu...
August 11, 2004 by crimson
I don't know if there is ever going to be a time where I don't take her shit. I love my sister, I truly do. But the things that we fight about, and the stuff we say to each other is truly horrendous. Last night, she said something downright awful to me, and I was just fuming. I was fuming about the fact that she said all this stuff at the top of her voice in front of my daughter. I was beet-red and shaking as she had the bloody nerve to accuse me of things that she knows nothing abou...
May 4, 2004 by crimson
I mentioned it in my latest blog, but I'm slowly going crazy with my 6 year old's incessant chattering. I love her voice. It's such a sweet, girly voice. It's cute to listen to, because there's some word sounds that she still can't say properly such as mixing up W's for R's, and pronouncing other words incorrectly, like 'hopsital' for 'hospital', etc,. But, lately, she's just been going on and on about anything and everything. Since she was by my side for over 72 hours, I was going batty...
April 28, 2004 by crimson
Last night I had another one of those annoying tornado dreams. I have them all the time. I'm always the one trying to lead everyone to safety, yet no one is listening because they are all panicking. I'm the one who is in the safest place, while others are lifted from their feet, whisked off to godknowswhere. These dreams are so vivid. I can feel the wind blowing my hair and pushing my body around, and the sound of the wind is deafening. Objects fly at random, often coming close to hitti...
March 4, 2004 by crimson
It's funny/unexpected/nice how, as a single parent, I get offers of babysitting services from friends that I know well enough, but haven't let them into that part of my life. Generally, if I go out on my own, it's when my girl is already being looked after by my parents or her auntie. So, these people that I know so well, are apart from my day to day life with Kole. I generally don't take anyone up on offers to babysit outside of my family. I have a several girlfriends who are also raising kid...
March 1, 2004 by crimson
My CrapComputer is just that... a piece of shit. It's a P1 16 M waste of electronic hardware in today's age of technology. I get booted often from other websites... this old thing just can't handle a whole lot of graphics. And forget about downloading things from the Net... it just won't do it. Now, there are many things on my lists of Must Haves... I must have a new car, I must have a washer/dryer instead of lugging all our laundry over the the laundromat or my parents' place. Neither ...
February 16, 2004 by crimson
Previous to my current address, I lived a fairly transient existence. The life of a student is just like that. You live for eight months in a bland but cheap apartment, move home, work or travel for a couple of months, and then its back to the old grind again. I can't count the number of apartments that I've rented, nor the houses that I shared with friends. It was generally a good time, but with a child, I found the need for stability. We've lived in this particular apartment for almost 2 ye...
February 12, 2004 by crimson
We're not identical. We are as different as night and day, but we're close. I see her everyday, and probably spend at least 2 hours a day with her (and her little girl). We share a car (but live in separate areas in the same town) and I spend a lot of time driving her child back and forth to daycare every day. We share a lot of the same friends, and spend a lot of time at my parents' place with both our kids. So, of course, we drive each other crazy at times. I've always wondered if there ...
February 8, 2004 by crimson
It's been almost 2 months since Christmas. Judging from the toys around the house, the most popular toys still seem to be the ones obtained from McDonald's Happy Meals. Seriously. My six year old got totally spoiled from me, my parents and everyone else who knows her. On top of this, her birthday was also 10 days before Christmas. Sure, the Barbie dolls are in continual rotation, but that's really all that she plays with on a constant basis. Okay, maybe it's my fault that her big present fr...
February 2, 2004 by crimson
1. Letting your kid wipe down walls with a Magic Eraser is not exactly the same as having your kid do the really bad chores around the house, like scrubbing the toilet, cleaning out science experiments from the fridge or starting up the car for you in -30 weather so it can defrost. Some things really just aren't done. 2. Toys get smaller, and have tend to have many more tiny pieces to them as the kids get older, and they don't clean up on their own. 3. You can't just live on pizza and beer...