Aside from currently enduring a doozy of a hangover, I feel pretty positive about the New Year. I think I've outgrown my dark days. There was a time when everything seemed life or death, when tears would fall bitterly, and I would burn inside with great rage. I struggled with basic emotions, and would bottle it all up, silent until that inevitable explosion. Even now, I thank my mother for loving me every moment. I sure didn't make life easy for her. These days, I try to look...
Most times when I write, I do it from the hip. I rarely have a preformed idea of what I'm going to write, rather, I let it all out in one great glurp. You know, occasionally, during a random lull in my day, I have an idea of what might be good to write about, but I'm rarely prepared during those times. Those golden gems slip into my consciousness, and then are lost to wherever good thoughts go because I'm without a pen and paper and have a shitty memory for half-formed thoughts. I'm...
I guess something mucky's been going on around here, but I slipped in and posted this, somehow. Although, not much has been going on, just a little home improvement. This morning, I loaded the Jeep up with random items (including my evicted neighbour's outdoor junk, hope she wasn't planning on coming back for it, hahahaha.) and headed for the dump with my girl. How bloody wonderful it felt to pitch old tricycles, vcrs, pots and pans and other kitchen items into the big dumpsters. The ...
What better way to spend Christmas Eve wrapping presents, drinking beer, and watching Shaun of the Dead? The holidays have been busy, but lazy, too. I got a brand new duvet (" Tyler Durden : Do you know what a duvet is? Narrator : It's a comforter... Tyler Durden : It's a blanket. Just a blanket.") and tested it out this afternoon and it works perfectly. Toasty warm and fluffy. I also got some books, some gift certificates and new pair of Converse high tops. I got my girl lots of ...
In less than 5 hours, I will start my Christmas vacation. While I'm due to film a workshop on January 8th, it's just a 4 hour gig. From then on, things are up in the air. We're awaiting funding results to see if I will be hired on a full-time basis. And while I look like the prime candidate for the job (experienced, graduate of similar program, financially qualified based on single parenting, and Native to boot) there's still some uneasiness on my part. What if it doesn't work out? W...
"We don't sell Tic Tacs, we sell cigarettes. And they're cool, available, and addictive . The job is almost done for us." - Budd 'BR' Rohrabacher (JK Simmons) in Thank You For Smoking Ten years ago, you would find half the faculty and other workers outside at one and a half hour intervals. There'd be great, stand up containers for your finished cigarettes; now there's only random soggy butts littering the ground 10 metres or more from any entrance. Not many people smoke around here, ...
I always bitch and moan about my physique, which is not super-model-ish at all. But honestly, that pizza and cake that I had this afternoon is the reason why. I don't feel discouraged, or disgusted, or even guilty about ingesting this good-tasting but not entirely good-for-you food... it was damned good. Why ruin it with negative feelings? Work has been insanely busy, but now that we are actually in the current run, it's slowed down almost to a halt. I feel insanely guilty about having mor...
I had to do it... say goodbye to my yahoo mail account. Too much spam, too little time to go through it all. I wanted very badly to go to Ottawa tonight to catch a rock show. Disappointed? Yes. Relieved? Yes. Because I found out that they would be playing at the end of January in my hometown. I have hopes to meet up with a friend this Christmas. Since moving out of town, we never seem to catch each other during his impromptu visits back to see his parents. I'm sure he's going to be...
I'm not big on the jesus-freaks. I'm appreciative of those who have faith, but those who hammer and accuse aren't the ones I'd turn to at the end of times. I like the weirdos. The ones who are too angry, too emotional, too ballsy, too anything. I love those that are just out there, but can't be around it 24-7 either. I like spice. Coming from a plain English upbringing, the only type of flavoring we had was butter or salt. No fresh garlic, just powdered. No real green vegetables, exc...
My favorite Christmas carol has got to be 'Have Yourself A Merrry Little Christmas" , and nobody does it, or will ever do it better than Judy Garland. The season is gearing up, and I can't help but be a little happier this time around. I've got more time off this year: 21 days off starting on the 18th. Twenty One !!!! Hooray for working for a university! I haven't had that much free time since... I was a student, I guess. We just finished a one evening only performance, that took appr...
One aspect of the job that I find almost unbearable is the Meet and Greet. There are several kinds, but the upcoming one is smallish; a party of 15. I can handle the larger ones quite easily. The key to those is to move . A couple of minutes at the punch bowl; a quick hello to a visiting professor; cooing over a small child. Interspace that with a few asides with closer co-workers and the big Meet and Greets are bearable. It's easy to get lost in a crowd, and a step outside for fresh air...
I've started and stopped writing so many articles in the past 72 hours. Sometimes an idea hits me, and I start pounding away on the keyboard and then, for no good reason, I lose it justlikethat . I stare at the screen for a few, and then I start looking online elsewhere. I poke my head in on the Myspace mess, which is like a wild, sleazy, commercial-ridden promotional party. I usually update a song on my profile, despite the latest news about copyrights and record labels. Surprise, surpris...
some people... I've noticed that I'm pretty strong when it comes to opinions about people. Especially people who shift the blame on others they believe have less power than they do. An example of this involves a boom box. We use cheap audio equipment in the performance space simply because it's much easier to cue. You want to try that move again? Well instead of running upstairs and finding the cue to play on the loud speakers, or hiring someone else to just perch in the booth all ...
Nothing's working this morning, and that includes me. I have another day off, and I'm bored, bored, bored. But I guess everybody else is doing their own thing, so there's not much new to read or comment on. My gmail is down, so I can't get to that certain project that I'm sporadically working on, and Joeuser is being a bitch to me. There's some kind of glitch happening, but because my Myspace is fucking up too, I've got that sad feeling that all is caused by this computer that I'm using, n...
Snow's coming. My sister smelled the air, my neighbour stared at the clouds, and they both proclaimed it to be so. I don't have that kind of power. I know it's snowing when I see flakes falling, can tell it's raining by hearing the drops pitter patter, and know that it's hot out when I start sweating. It's that easy. My fall has been luxuriously lazy. Yes, there has been some very hectic weeks while in production, but I've also had ample time between productions to make up for all t...