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Published on March 4, 2004 By crimson In Blogging
It's about that time of year... the new season brings forth the opportunity to look back and make decisions about the future that lies ahead. I have been doing some thinking, but I'm not going to fool anyone, I've been doing a lot of burying my head in the sand, too.

I gave myself some time between studies, to decide if it was right for me to continue on. My GPA is high enough where I could feasibly make that jump into even higher learning, but what it all really breaks down to is the issue of time. I don't want to be 40 and starting a brand new career. Yeah, I could make a lot more money as a professor, assuming I got hired at the right time. Lately, it seems as if time is worth a lot more than just money.

My baby is growing up... and suddenly it seems as if years have passed by in a nanosecond. She's not a baby anymore... she's well versed, independent and tough as nails... all this is good, but it makes me feel less her Mamma and more her Mother, if you know what I mean. She's grown so much since the fall, and I can barely keep up with the expenses of taking care of a healthy, happy girl. I am not complaining, however. I've got it good, and I know it.

I've decided that I've stalled long enough. I'm putting my application in for Teacher's College. I should have done it last year, but wanted to be able to take better care of her while she was in Kindergarden and having split days for school. I think I'll make a good teacher, and am looking forward to helping kids learn about everything... but even though I am lamenting my child's steady aging process, I'm in a hurry to see how it all turns out. Man, sometimes it's hard to stay in the present, even though I recall advising a friend to do so, sometime today.

The plus side for today, is that I've lined up more work, involving theatre and performance... it should be fun, rewarding, and exhausting... maybe that will make my mind stop whirling so fast.

Comments
on Mar 05, 2004
ahhhh, the profession of teaching. How exciting!! My sister, whom I live with, teaches 4th grade, and I plan on teaching juveniles in prison after college. It is truely the best profession ever! Though I don't really share the passion for younger children, good luck!

Trinitie
on Mar 05, 2004
Thanks. My brother is a teacher, too and has partly been the motivator in this grand plan. He seems so satisfied, even though he is also exhausted and overworked. The after-school programming is cut from most schools in Ontario, but he does so much on his own time and with his own money. The reward is truly in seeing the kids grow.