no wonder I am an insomniac
I don't know why I can't fall asleep. I've always been this way... at least, I remember suffering from insomnia since I was about 10. It comes and it goes and 'suffering' isn't really the word now; just a part of life.
My head just whirs with random thoughts, brief musical melodies, and audio blurbs of movies and tv shows watched in the past. They say that writers are often afflicted with this problem... yeah, I consider myself to be one, even though I don't make a whole lot of money at it. (I wrote for a newspaper and contributed to other forms of media, periodically.) I write a lot of fiction stuff too, and have lately been involved with playwriting. It's strange, but I see, while trying to fall asleep, sentences flash by. Some are meaningless, others prompt me to get up, and start off on that tangent.
After being on Joeuser for awhile, even taking into account time differences, I know that I am not the only one here who has trouble sleeping. Before I had Kole, I used to go out for walks at night. Now, I feel cooped up because I can't leave the house. I'm glad to have finally gotten internet access again, but it's not the same. After coming home from my late-night walks, I would be tired, and would welcome the sight of a nice warm bed. Now, I just go to bed and wait... hoping for the moment where my brain stops it's conscious train-of-thought; leaving me with nothing but welcomed silence.
At least, until I start dreaming.