anti-prose. random matter.
it's not final...
Published on January 10, 2005 By crimson In Blogging
I am a firm believer that we make our own heaven or hell...

... and our moods largely depend on simply ourselves. For instance, I am either going to completely ignore the fact that the idiot upstairs was cranking out really bad country music until at least 4:00 am this morning and continue on as usual, or I am going to blame every negative thing that happens to me today on that rat bastard. And so far, I've got a lot of fingerpointing stored up.

-My dog died today.
-I have 33 bucks to my name until my next paycheck. Like 12 whole days from now. And that one is going to go just as fast.
-I have had a constant headache since last Monday.
-My best friend is moving again.
-I've got a lot of student loans to worry about.

But the end result is this: do I work myself up into an acid frenzy of hate, or just simply shake it off? I mean, I've got a lot of stuff to be thankful for. I've got family, friends and a beautiful girl who loves me. I'm pretty healthy... at least I know that my headache is going to go away, eventually. And my dog is finally at peace.

I'm at peace. At peace with myself.

For the time being.

Comments
on Jan 10, 2005
Dog died from noise pollution? Spent all your money on earplugs? Headache caused by noise and/or lack of sleep from music? Friend moving away from country music? No idea on the loans though, but the rest are clearly the fault of the loud music, it's so obvious
on Jan 10, 2005
sounds like a "life happening" thing....all things change as I am sure you know... bad to good, visa versa.. stay strong and be greatfull for the blessings in your life.. the rest of it is JUST STUFF.