I don't know if it's because I've been watching too much of The X-Files, Alias, and The Matrix, or if it's because I've had to listen and watch audio and screenshots of me at work, but lately I feel that everybody is watching me.
Maybe, too, it's because I've been too much in my head this weekend, spending more time thinking and writing, that is doing me in. Long conversations with friends as apposed to faceless clientele, is something that I've been lacking. People seem so random to me. Out of the thousands I've talked to in a week, I can't say that I've had one decent conversation with a friend.
Either way, I'm starting to feel that technology is invading my life, and not in a good way. I've always been able to plug in and relax. Nowadays, I just want to be free from the currents of progress and find some place devoid of electric dependence. Instead of rocking out, I want to walk on... but my trips 'back to nature' have just as an effect on my mind as anything else. My running program is slow and tedious, but since I've been able to get outside and actually listen to sounds that aren't prerecorded, it's messing up my equilbrium. My dreams have been filled with images of the outdoors. A dream about a stroll by the river brings on auditory horrors and temperature terrors... I can't help but laugh at the strangeness of it all. The modern Anishnabe-kwe.... desensitized by modern society.