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Published on October 4, 2004 By crimson In Philosophy
So, I guess I've come to the point in life where it's troubling to consider that this is IT. I've got me a full-time job. I've got a kid. I've got debts, and I've got my own 27 inch television. I save up to buy mattresses and car parts. The thought of going to a dance bar pangs me. In less than five months I'm gonna be 35. Halfway to there. Where? Underground, of course. That's the end of my future, but the rest of it seems a bit dull, too. At 55 I will have finally paid off my student loan. Whoopee. Maybe by then I'll have moved out of housing. Crap, this is a bit depressing...

On the flip side, in ten years, Kole will be 16. Thinking about university (for sure), and deciding her future. Maybe by then I will have gained enough wisdom to help her make some choices, or at least the understanding about when to just let her to make up her own mind, for better or for worse. Hopefully, my current investments will bring a sense of financial security that I have yet to have had... maybe by 55 my student loan worries will be far from over, and I'll actually be thinking retirement.

One can only wish....

Comments
on Oct 04, 2004
Well ..I'm 55, 7 kids(16-30yrs), same wife( still love her), pets, cars, home.. advice.. have a life to turn to later on
kids grow ..time flies...20 yrs is nothing . so is this it.. yup! keep smiling
on Oct 04, 2004

Whattya talkin' about, 'this is IT'??  You're only beginning, honey!  That's the way I'm looking at being 35.  The first half was work, figuring out who I was and all the crap, and the rest is play...you've established yourself, you're getting to be financially stable (more stable than you were)...and as for being wise, well, I've always thought that you were. 


Here's to being in our mid-30's....we've only just begun!

on Oct 05, 2004

You've got a couple years on me, and you have different anatomy than me, so it's tough to give you advice.  Not to mention the fact that you didn't ask for it. 
But i'm gonna go for it anyway, cause that's the kind of guy I am. 


Once you find that 'special' someone, and you will find him, things will make more sense.  I'm sure i'll get flamed by someone for saying that... since it's SOOO fashionable these days to be single and happy, but it's really the way I feel.  We're (people) not meant to live alone... we're designed by our creator to be social creatures, and we're meant to find a partner to 'complete' us.  I'm not telling you this to make you depressed, it's more to give you hope. 


Happiness is gonna come your way Darlin'... of that I'm sure. 

on Oct 05, 2004
Thanks, all. I don't know if there is ever a time in life where you think you have it all together... Its nice to know that the support of friends can make a difference. I feel much better, if not a bit silly for writing that. What will be, will be.