anti-prose. random matter.
in other people's dramas...
Published on August 25, 2004 By crimson In Blogging
I hold my tongue.
The problem with blogging, is that you often get caught up in other people's dramas, without meaning to. I try my best to remain silent when it seems like people are provoking each other intentionally. I generally choose to let those adults settle things between themselves. I mean, really, what are you gonna do? And like someone once mentioned, its easy to see the 'reality-tv' mentality come into effect when this happens. No holds barred action is about to take place, and before you know it, a crowd has gathered and we are all chanting 'fight, fight, fight' in unison and then the so-called fun really begins. And later, as the dust settles, people shake their heads, wonder what all the fuss is about, and simply walk away. It's memorable for a day or two, and later nobody remembers what the fight was even about. The only thing that is remembered weeks later is that both participants give off the loser-stink, just for going at it. And some of us regret for even egging them on.

i hate my life...
... simply because of scheduling difficulties. It's a pain in the arse, and I really need to actively seek a babysitter. One outside of my family. But I hesitate at that, because of all the horrors of babysitters that you read about. Like Jill's, like the one in the paper the other day, where a teenager was busy making out with her boyfriend while the parents were at work, and the kids left their backyard and drowned in a nearby river. Both of them. But I feel the need to seek additional care for her, because the amount of time that my family helps out leaves me hesitant, and unable, to secure them for aid when I just want to go out for a pint or two. Just a bloody pint.

shopping with the best of them
All right. I'll confess. Shopping is fun. And I feel incredibly girly in admitting it.

Comments
on Aug 25, 2004
It's good to see a post from you! As you know, I've been caught up way too many times.
I was hoping that you were getting to enjoy some and getting the fun of back to school shopping and such! I always had the same fears about babysitters. Single moms have a rough time with getting breaks. I hope it works out that you can find one you trust soon.
on Aug 25, 2004
the amount of time that my family helps out leaves me hesitant, and unable, to secure them for aid when I just want to go out for a pint or two. Just a bloody pint.


nic, you are still a person, and i hope you don't feel guilty for needing some 'me' time. as hard as it is, you owe it to yourself and your daughter to give yourself a pat on the back occasionally and have some time to yourself. you're doing a damned good job. i take my hat off to you. you're a great mum, i can tell by your concern over your babysitting choice. your daughter is lucky to have you

vanessa/mig XX