like you haven't thought about it...
It's funny how easy it is to have a crush on somebody. Crushes, on their own, are pretty innocent. In admitting that you have one, you also acknowledge that you really don't intend to do anything about it. Simply put, you're prepared to admire from afar.
I have crushes for many occasions. I've been crushing on my main guy for more than a year now, (yes, that's pathetic, I know) but I am also 'interested' in other people for other reasons.
I'm 'in love' with my boss at work. There's something so attractive about someone who knows more than you do. At this point, it's not much of a surprise. I don't have the faintest clue about some of the aspects of my employment... and he has all the answers. And, officially, he's not my BOSS, but he is in a higher position than I am, so my subservient nature is kicking in, too. I actually blush when he tells me I am doing a good job.
Having a crush on people at work is a good idea, if only because it's a bit more of an incentive to get up at 5 o'clock in the morning. (That actually makes me sound like I'm really hard-up, come to think of it.) Either way, even though I have naughty thoughts about my supervisor, I'm also lusting after a co-worker. We actually met up one night after work... and I've had several opportunities since then to be forced to spend time alone with him in the elevator. Mind you, there was no stopping between floors for us; I'm a bit awkward around him since last weekend. I was so goddamned friendly then, now I just treat him like shit... after 6 pints, I got a bit friendly, I guess. I'm kinda embarassed, because obviously, without a few drinks in me, I don't have much to say to him now.
And yes, I'm attracted to others, but what is curious is how often I think about other people here at Joeuser. If good looks are intriguing to some, a way with words is the way to my heart for me. Who can't appreciate someone who's made you laugh, made you grin, made you squirm a bit, or even made you good and mad? When someone touches your heart, when someone makes you think about things they've written months ago... there's something goddamned attractive there.
Crushes. Nothing ever happens from them, usually. But there is some good in them, I tell you.