I'm boring myself, lately. Too much socializing, and while some of it is work-related, it's starting to feel like habit. I don't know how the bigwigs do it, but there are so many events, performances, and meetings I should be attending, in order to promote both my position and my company. However, the majority of these events are surrounded by gossip and alcohol, both of which fuel each other.
I keep my back against the wall, and luckily, I don't often get asked pointed questions. I tend to shake things off, or just smile and make a joke of it. There hasn't been any pressure to take sides, or to join in on the mudslinging. I think most people who know me, know better.
However, while I'm able to avoid the pitfalls surrounding work events, my own private freetime is spiralling downwards. It's a neverending line of flirtations. I don't know how to handle the attention, I guess. Stupid me, I don't know what choices to make. My first inclination is to make no choice at all, but to back away entirely. It was easier before, though. And while I used to feel justified in calling someone else's behavior what it was, I can't be so pointed, nowadays.
Pfft.
I think I just need more time alone.