I've been blogging for the past couple of days simply because I've been staying at my parents' house and I can't find anything better to do while waiting. I'm trying to divert my attention to what's really going on, but it's impossible.
My grandmother has been very sick. She's been in the hospital for the past week, and isn't expected to continue on. She took her ventilator tube out last night, and so far, is still alive. Her body is fighting against her own wishes. After many phone calls, my father issued the DNR with consultation with her doctor. It's what she wants, too, but for now, nothing can be done but to try to make her comfortable. The immediate family is in Toronto, and the rest of us are at our own homes, waiting for the inevitable phone call to come.
I took my niece from daycare early, and Kole should be home anytime. My sister and I are finding comfort with our children, who, thankfully, had a chance to get to know our Nana, but are unaware of what is currently happening.
How do you find the words to explain?