anti-prose. random matter.
like its easy...
Published on April 24, 2004 By crimson In Blogging
I've mentioned this before, I think...

I know a lot of people who think that I am a lot younger than what I actually am. I'm 34, but generally, people think I'm about 25 or a little bit younger. I've been carded recently for both cigarettes and at a bar that I don't normally go to, but that stopped happening a couple of years ago, too, on average. Now, I have a twin... who everyone thinks is way older than me, because they only think that we are plain sisters (of course we're non-identical!).

I've seen other people go through this... when they are no longer considered a young adult... you know of legal age to their mid- twenties. Once you are in your thirties, generally you cannot pass for that age anymore. But why? Has it got to do with style? A certain attainment of maturity or just fine skin? Or maybe it's a lack of maturity, or just the crowd that you hang out with?

I was originally going to post this in the Family section, because I wanted to go a step further and say, you can certainly tell the difference between a parent, and a non-parent, even when there are no kids around. Again, I'll use me and my sister as examples. When she wears track pants, jogging shoes, and has her hair in a bun, it looks like she hasn't had time to properly get ready to go. Like she's ready to go grocery shopping for the family. Like she's about to do some gardening. However, when I wear track pants, jogging shoes and have my hair up, I look like I'm on my way to play ball. Another example? As each year goes by, her purse gets bigger and bigger. I've just begun to be able to function with just a wallet again. She totes kleenex packs, antibacterial lotion, a checkbook and dayplanner, and a book of crossword puzzles, I bring a lighter, a lip balm, and change for coffee.
(Thank God she doesn't know about Joeuser. I just reread this, and it doesn't really read right at all. My sincere apologies to her if she ever finds out, and anyone else who might find this offensive, I don't mean it that way.)

I don't know if I've illustrated the differences enough, or even if they mean anything at all. Maybe I'm sub-consciously worried about making this transition myself, since slowly discovering a new frown line in the mirror this morning, and worrying about how my ankle is going to do during my first outdoor court game of the season. Maybe it is because I don't feel grown-up at all, even though there is a lot in my life to indicate that I have the resposibilities that many other grown-ups have. I'm managing to meet them, but I never seem to feel like I'm doing it right. Instead of just living the life of an adult, I feel like I am flying by the seat of my pants. On the other hand, my sister seems to take all her responsibilities in stride. Like it's easy.

I wish life was.

Peace.

Comments
on Apr 24, 2004
I think it has a lot to do with personality. Those who are good with details and are very practical find ordinary life easy. Those who are creative and intelligent find ordinary life harder but we're better at taking tests. When you get in your fifties, things will even out a little. You may still look younger, but you will be more able to deal with ordinary life and she may find life to be boring. I think the world needs her type more than your type. So there are more practical people than dreamers. But if there were no dreamers, nothing new would get done. So just enjoy yourself and your sister. You are brilliant, and creative.
on Apr 24, 2004
So just enjoy yourself and your sister. You are brilliant, and creative.


well said Sherye
on Apr 24, 2004
You know I thought you were younger too...you are young in spirit...

Ditto to the above comment..
on Apr 25, 2004
Personality, for sure, but looks too. I'm like the boy who never grew up. Behaviour-wise, I could mix in with 16-18 year olds and you wouldn't tell me apart, I guess my age only surfaces in my writing and in experience that goes with it. Looks wise most people don't give me more than 21-22, being nearly 26 that's kind of reassuring that I'll still pass for a 20-something by the time I'm 35
on Apr 26, 2004
Mack: You hope. hehehe.

I'm glad for the comments... thanks!