anti-prose. random matter.
volunteerism is for crazy folk...
Published on September 24, 2006 By crimson In Blogging
I don't know why I do these things, but I volunteered not only to look after my sister's girl, but a friend's son as well for the day. Duh. What was I thinking? Sundays are supposed to be lazy, relaxing days, but all I've gotten out of it today is a lot of noise and calamity.

Three kids. I remember wanting more than just my girl. I wanted at least six of them, all different flavors. Now, though, I'm fairly settled, and Kole and I are doing just fine on our own. If I ever get the urge to reproduce, I just borrow someone else's kid for the day, and I'm well shut of the feeling for a while.

Three kids are easier to look after sometimes. They entertain themselves. Sure, you have to break up the occasional fight or two, and make sure that one's not getting ganged up on by the other two, but the day's gone fairly well. My sister went off to the V V, good old Value Village, a large, smelly, second hand store. The other visiting guest's parent is off filming a show that she's working on.

All these artsy types. I've forgotten what this land is like, but it's coming back pretty quickly. Everything is so important, so tactile, so moving so everything. There's a great sense of urgency, that's unlike the constant rush of my previous job. That rush was neverending, which made it boring in comparision. This urgency is feeling like the moment is about to happen, watch out, don't blink or you might miss it. Pivotal moments, every second of the day.

I don't know how this job is going to go, as I'm just a monkey for now. I just do what I'm told, and some of it is beneath me, if any kind of honest work can be. But, I'm learning a lot, and it's opening my eyes to show what's out there. My only regret has been staying at the CSR job for so long. Thankless, agravating and unmotivating work. Bah.

I can't think up of a way to wind this off, other than saying my work is done on one gig, on to the new one on Wednesday. Different times, for sure.


Comments
on Sep 24, 2006
Three kids all at once eh?! I think you have found a good way of testing the waters for sure!

I think you'll be fine and it's ok to have doubts with your new job. Hang in there Nic!
on Sep 27, 2006
Ah, you have much more courage than I, Nic. I would never have volunteered to begin with but I'll be first to admit I'm a chicken when it comes to kids.
on Sep 27, 2006
I don't babysit much, but when I do, I already know I'm glad to have only one child, and often wish I had none at all! Isn't that awful?

But now that I'm about to give birth to #2, sterilization is definitely in someone's future. My husband raised his hand for that one.

You're right though, more than one child can be easier at times because they entertain each other. That's a load off the mind of a parent of an only child!

But really I don't know where I'd be if I weren't a mommy. I'd probably be a prostitute or something horrible. Kids keep us honest & clean, don't they?   
on Sep 27, 2006
Kids keep us honest & clean, don't they?


I really would hate to see what would have become of me without my girl. While I never did do a whole lot of unmentionables, I wouldn't dream of continuing the lifestyle I once led.

often wish I had none at all! Isn't that awful?


I don't think it's awful, just honest. There have been a lot of times where I'd think things would have been easier if I hadn't had her, and in some ways they would be, in an instant gratification way. For the long haul, though, I wouldn't trade this life for anything.

Thanks for writing, and good luck with your family and your new baby.

on Sep 27, 2006
I'm a chicken when it comes to kids.


Buckbuckbuck. The rule is not to show fear!

Hang in there Nic!


I'm hanging in. It's going well, and even though it's a shaky start, it'll be all right.


Thanks for writing, you two.
on Oct 05, 2006
The rule is not to show fear


Yeah, but they're scaaaary... And they make unbelievable messes out of the simplest of things. I think I'm a kidaphobe...