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Published on July 30, 2006 By crimson In Blogging
At one point today, I felt self-conscious, and it amused me.

I was sitting on the beach when it happened. Honestly, there were a group of sixteen year old girls in string bikinis, and a platoon of shiny young boys that gleamed like sparkly treasure. The whole scene was rippling. And they were sitting, and flirting, and just being themselves next to us.

And there I was with two kids under the age of 8, and I was doing the Mom thing: handing out PB&J sandwiches and making sure that everyone had their sunscreen on. I buckled lifejackets, I settled arguements, and I used my firm voice whenever it became necessary.

And then one of them rolled their eyes at me.

Hehehe. It's so funny when I realize that I'm not a girl anymore but a real adult. And perhaps saying that I I felt self-conscious is a bit of a mistake. Maybe I just had a moment of self-awareness, which is completely different. But not all bad, either.


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on Jul 30, 2006
Today I was at the beach as well. I saw two teens, innocent enough, I thought but they were lying close to each other. She was wrapped in a towel or blanket and it looked like he was uncovered just lying next to her. They were holding hands. I saw a cop come over and ask. them, looking down at them.."What's going on?" The beach was packed with no room to hardly put your towel down so I thought it was a bit much. But he made the girl show she had clothes on under that towel. I was walking by at the time so I'm not sure how it turned out....but it looked like she pulled back the towel and showed him she was ok.

I spent alot of summers with my boyfriend at the beach and I never saw this before. But I guess "stuff" happens and with all the little kids around they want to keep things.....well covered....as best as can be at the beach.

on Jul 31, 2006
It's so funny when I realize that I'm not a girl anymore but a real adult.


It is almost like a slap in the face when one realises they're not the child or young adult they still, for some reason, think themselves to be. I'm glad you found humour in the realisation. I think this is the best way to deal with it.
on Jul 31, 2006
One of the 16 year old girls rolled their eyes at you? Or one of your children.

If the former, they are in for a very rude awakening before long (after all, it was only 8 years ago they were in your children's place).
on Aug 03, 2006
growing up really, really sucks sometimes don't it Nick?
on Aug 03, 2006
growing up really, really sucks sometimes don't it Nick?


Oh yes!


You go Nicky! As Maso said, finding humor in it to be reflective like that, great!