completely negative output here...
I've had a hate-on all day.
I've been angry, annoyed, upset and generally just pissed off with everything and everyone. Why? Who knows? You'd think I'd be in a better mood because it's so sunny out, and the wind is smelling of spring and promise. There's so much to be happy about: my brother's coming down for the holidays, and it's the first time I've seen him since Christmas. I'm going to go visiting relatives on Sunday, and I've got a copy of the final Matrix movie to watch. But no.... still can't seem to break out of this black pit of emotion.
I feel sorry for Kole, when I have days like these. I haven't been particularly nice to be around, although I am doing my damnedest to not take it out on her. I've gone out of my way to hug her and kiss her, to assure her that I'm not upset with her, but still, I feel very inadequate as a parent right now.
I need some time alone, some nice smelling flowers, a kind word from an old friend. I need chocolate. I need the winning lotto ticket. I need some love and affection. I need my mom. I need.... something.
Blahhhhh.