I’ve been in this weird, cloudy mood all day. Not a “storm’s a brewin’” kinda mood... more like a lazy, fluffy, not-on-solid-ground kind of mood. Perhaps it’s just that I’ve been slightly exhausted after spending a night out playing pool, enjoying good conversation, and consuming pints of beer at my favorite hangout. I’m definitely lacking in the sleep department, but things just keep ticking upstairs... annoying when I realize what I really need to do is just shut my eyes before my whole busy day on Monday cranks up.
Mack wrote one time, that he thought he needed a change in friends, and boy, do I know what he’s talking about.
In my situation, it’s not that there’s anything wrong with the current status... but my best friend and I have been slowly drifting apart for some time. I used to hang out with her every day; our kids played together, we’ve even lived together a couple of years ago. But things are changing. She’s making more plans without me, and I’ve been doing the same... maybe we’ve heard too many of the same stories, or maybe it’s just that we’re becoming different people. I’m sad that we haven’t laughed like we used to, stopped having deep conversations, or just gossiped about the people we know. But, it’s not like there’s a reason for any of this to have stopped. There’s been no big fight, or awkward moments... but the distance between us now is evident. People mention it now, and I don’t know how to explain. I think it’s just Time moving on.
So, I started hanging out with different people, and have also been going out to places on my own. Places that I would go to before with a group, but would never venture in alone. There’s a handful of places now, that I really do like to be. The people who work at these places are great, and I’m starting to develop some friendships with some really good people. It’s funny that a place that I’ve lived in for years, seems a bit newer because of the stuff that I am doing now. It required a bit of courage on my part, to get out of my old way of just going along with the crowd. For awhile, I felt lonely... but things are getting better.
Even though I don’t want to see another pint for quite some time... I’ll give a ‘cheers’ to friends... old and new, at home and here. Goodnight for now.