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electric dependence
Published on December 7, 2004 By crimson In Blogging
I don't know if it's because I've been watching too much of The X-Files, Alias, and The Matrix, or if it's because I've had to listen and watch audio and screenshots of me at work, but lately I feel that everybody is watching me.

Maybe, too, it's because I've been too much in my head this weekend, spending more time thinking and writing, that is doing me in. Long conversations with friends as apposed to faceless clientele, is something that I've been lacking. People seem so random to me. Out of the thousands I've talked to in a week, I can't say that I've had one decent conversation with a friend.

Either way, I'm starting to feel that technology is invading my life, and not in a good way. I've always been able to plug in and relax. Nowadays, I just want to be free from the currents of progress and find some place devoid of electric dependence. Instead of rocking out, I want to walk on... but my trips 'back to nature' have just as an effect on my mind as anything else. My running program is slow and tedious, but since I've been able to get outside and actually listen to sounds that aren't prerecorded, it's messing up my equilbrium. My dreams have been filled with images of the outdoors. A dream about a stroll by the river brings on auditory horrors and temperature terrors... I can't help but laugh at the strangeness of it all. The modern Anishnabe-kwe.... desensitized by modern society.

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on Dec 07, 2004
You are being watched, or at least read
on Dec 07, 2004

I agree... we should all just shut it all down for one day and walk to a friend's house... drink some tea (prepared over an open fire), talk about stuff that matters...

on those rare occasions where the electricity goes out for a few hours, or even a day, real conversations actually take place!  There are a couple instances that come to mind. 

let's shut it all down for a day... what do ya think?

on Dec 07, 2004
on those rare occasions where the electricity goes out for a few hours


I love those occassions--like the last hurricane we had around here...the power was out and it was great. My roommates and I sat around and played card games and board games...very relaxing and peaceful...but then 8 days later when the power wasn't back on and I still had to walk up the eight flights of stairs to my apartment, I was ready for my electricity driven reality once again.

Every once in a while, it's simply time to take a break.

My running program is slow and tedious, but since I've been able to get outside and actually listen to sounds that aren't prerecorded, it's messing up my equilbrium


First off, I'm impressed with the running program even if it is slow and tedious--if only I could get that far. Secondly, isn't it funny what effects our dreams. I've recently acquired a really warm duvet so I've been sleeping with the window cracked. I live near the Pentagon and there are constantly helicopters flying passed--my dreams have been very "war-like" since I've started sleeping with the window open!