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Published on June 7, 2008 By crimson In Blogging

Another tres humid day, but it was so much better because at least it was my day off. We went to the beach and were surprised to see it packed. Because of the late spring, I figured the lake waters would be way too cold to swim much, but no, it was simply the first perfect day of the season. 

I work tomorrow, and am booked for afternoons. Because its generally so bloody cold at work because of the aircon, I actually semi look forward to showing up.  Our apartment is still pretty hot, even with the window aircon pumping 24-7. Do I feel guilty letting it run so long? Hell no.  I'm of the put-on-a-sweater-if-you're-cold kind of person in the winter time.  And lemme tell you, it gets bloody cold up here. Having said that, we turned the heat on for only 4 DAYS this past winter, so I figure I'm due for some wanton electrical extravagance. Our windows are the root cause of both our thriftiness in the winter, and our excessive consumption in the summer. Wide double picture windows in the living room, with a western view to an empty road leading towards both a bike trail and river. Picturesque indeed, but also freakin' hot, no matter the season.

Talking religion the other day, a conversation that I try my hardest to avoid. I have no hardcore belief system, no silent urging towards one thing or another. I'm not a believer, but like Mulder, I once had a poster with the tagline, I WANT TO BELIEVE. God. The Creator. Aliens. Whatever. I say this without wanting a comeback, I just want to know, and since I haven't found it yet, I sit, aimless yet not really searching a whole lot. An Elder told me once that I'm not ready. It will come sooner or later, that feeling of faith, of understanding. She wasn't specific about any type of higher power, either. Simply shrugged her shoulders and advised me to simply take it easy. What will be, will be.

I'm all right with that kind of thinking.  I'm easy-peasy about a lot of things these days. I've had some big thinks, and some general mulling over of a few ideas here and there, but still, no answers. I feel much better about myself just playing it by ear, letting the wind guide me, so to speak. The beginning of summer, and I wholly believe that it's simply the right time to let it all just go.

Broke, broke, broke, though.  Poverty sucks, man. Luckily, I'm accustomed to it, and can pennypinch like no tomorrow.  Payments to the government for my student loan, child care, transportation (read gas money), food, and the occasional pk of rez smokes and there's not much left in the right jeans pocket after a payday. We have the bare necessities, and that's it.  But like Baloo, it's just jivey, these days. I'm not worried, simply accustomed, I repeat.


I'm listening to I've Been Everywhere by Johnny Cash, reading Atonement by Ian McEwan, I'm hooked on celebrity magazines, and just saw Transformers for the billionth time.

 


Comments
on Jun 08, 2008

Hi Nicky, nice to read you!  I hear ya about running the AC 24/7!  It gets hot here too and my apt is usually so humid!  My hubby and I play the he's hot, turns it on, I'm cold, turns it off game!  I know that doesn't help the electric bill! 

 

Being true to yourself when it comes to what you believe is very good and very important. 

on Jun 08, 2008
Always, always, ALWAYS nice to read a post from NickyG! You're one of my favorite writers ya know? I like how your words just flow. As for religion:

I was walking across a bridge one day, and I saw a man standing on the edge,
about to jump off. So I ran over and said "stop! Don’t do it!"

"Why shouldn't I?" he said.

I said, "Well, there's so much to live for!"

He said, "Like what?"

I said, "Well...are you religious or atheist?"

He said, "Religious."

I said, "Me too! Are you Christian or Buddhist?"

He said, "Christian."

I said, "Me too! Are you Catholic or Protestant?"

He said, "Protestant."

I said, "Me too! Are you Episcopalian or Baptist?"

He said, "Baptist!"

I said, "Wow! Me too! Are you Baptist Church of God or Baptist Church of the Lord?"

He said, "Baptist Church of God!"

I said, "Me too! Are you original Baptist Church of God, or are you Reformed
Baptist Church of God?"

He said, "Reformed Baptist Church of God!"

I said, "Me too! Are you Reformed Baptist Church of God, reformation of 1879,
or Reformed Baptist Church of God, reformation of 1915?"

He said, "Reformed Baptist Church of God, reformation of 1915!"

I said, "Die, heretic scum!" and pushed him off.


Heh. It's true. Many a truth is spoke in jest.
on Jun 09, 2008

We run our A/C 24/7 too. Oh, we hardly ever turn on the heater in the winter, too.

I used to have that Mulder poster, too.

I still haven't seen Transformers though it seems it has been on the pay channels every day for the last 2 months.

I sure used the word too a lot in this comment. Damn, just said it again.

 

on Jun 09, 2008

I still haven't seen Transformers though it seems it has been on the pay channels every day for the last 2 months.

It surprised me how good it actually was.  I wasn't expecting much, and still get into it whenever my girl asks me to play it again.

on Jun 09, 2008

AC 24/7!

I'd rather it be cooler than hotter!

on Jun 09, 2008

As for religion:

haha.  yeah. that's pretty much the big reason why i'm unconvinced.

Hey! miss you!

on Jun 09, 2008
I wasn't expecting much, and still get into it whenever my girl asks me to play it again.


I'll tell you why you should see it:

Megan Fox.

'Nuff said.

I mean, the robots are cool (even if Hot Rod wasn't in it), but Megan Fox, man?

'Nuff said.
on Jun 10, 2008
Heya Nicky, good to see you writing.

We don't have A/C in our house. In summer, we open our balcony doors and let the sea breeze cool us down. It is always reliable and much more environmentally-friendly

As for Transformers, I have to agree with SanChonino.

on Jun 10, 2008
We don't have A/C in our house. In summer, we open our balcony doors and let the sea breeze cool us down. It is always reliable and much more environmentally-friendly


Braggart!!

I live in a desert where they're sandstorms so bad highways close down. Wish I could feel some of that sea breeze.


Megan Fox.


I hear ya, SC.

I may not have seen the movie but I definitely have seen her parts. Oh, I also seen the parts (or should I say scenes) of the movie where she was in.

on Jun 10, 2008

7 Down. I was expecting this earlier... she's a pretty girl, and she rocked driving the tow truck. I didn't think she was going to do much but wear little.

on Jun 10, 2008
and she rocked driving the tow truck.


And they could have made that scene before she started driving so tacky, but they tastefully didn't.